Its amazing how God has a way of putting ones life into perspective. My past few blogs have been about our personal little life dramas; how we get so caught up in them we fail to realize our real mission and purpose, and even when we do realize just what we are really called to do, we don't always do it and we fall victim to our own circumstances and struggles. I have to confess that living out my drama each day overtook my emotions, my attitude, my style of living, and totally affected my walk with Christ or really lack of walk with Christ. Small things like a washer breaking down, being without a steady income, struggling to pay utilities, whatever does not compare to serious health issues. I was overcome with emotion tonight as I received a call from Den about his sister-in-law; finding a cancerous spot on her lung (a total non-smoker). Hit me like a ton of bricks, rocked my world totally; my heart and mind coming together seeking God in this situation, and realizing my drama is no longer of immediate importance or relevant. The life of a fellow follower of Christ, a family member, a mom, a wife, and a serious health issue becomes my immediate concern. My mind is realing with what, how, why and we should have or why didn't we. . . . .forgiveness is totally on my mind, and my body should be laying prostrate as I share this, asking God to totally remove the sin in my life and the self-absorbtion. I want, in the utmost way, to serve Him completely, in my daily walk, in the way I mother my children, in the relationship with my husband, in friendships, in all I do, yet I tend to do the opposite and struggle to put aside "self". It seems to always take something extreme to push me to grab ahold of Christ and not let go. What consumes my time? what controls me? Its unfortuate that things get prominate place over Christ. . . . . . it takes one phone call to change your world. . . . . . . and from tonight on I want my life to completely count for the cause of Christ; searching out what He wants from me and what He wants from my day, not what can I give Him out of the leftovers, if there are any; falling into bed tired and barely uttering a simple prayer for the completion of my day. This moment, I am asking God to cleanse my heart, to open my heart to His will and to see past all the "stuff" and search and serve Him. Please pray for my sister-in-law and their family as they work through the emotions of this; they are strong in their faith, and they have a trememdous support system through their church family. We know that God does not allow anything that isn't for our good and for His honor and Glory; may He be glorified in this situation!