Our first official week of no school. I think I hear the "Hallelujah Chorus" being played in the background. . . . . It's been so nice not having to scurry here or there. I started my week off with dentists appointments for two of the boys. While at the dentist office, yesterday, I made all our summer doctor, more dental and eye appointments and enrolled Brennan in a summer class in an area school district. I took my calendar with me and from my cell scheduled everything. (how did I survive all those years without a cell phone?) As I ended my final conversation the boys were done with their dental exams.

I am in the last two weeks of my spring semester class. WHEW! I honestly didn't think I was going to make it either! I start summer classes as soon as this class is finished then will have a break and fall classes will begin when the kids return to school after Labor Day. I can't even let my mind get ahead to that, letting go of the kids AGAIN!

This past year at Jacqueline's school was rough. We have been here for 9 years and the complexion of our school has drastically changed. We have some pretty severe discipline issues, some extremely tough kids and involved familys are now the minority. We have considered transfering both her and Colson to another area elementary school but their first grade classes are well over their allotment. So what do we do? Do we stay and try and make a difference in our school, do we homeschool, or do we put in for the school of choice and hope that by August there will be a spot for Colson? Pondering all this makes me realize how this scenario mirrors my walk with God. Do I want to take the easy road in my faith and trust, want everything to be comfortable, or do I dig my heels in, muster up all the resolve and determination I can and continue the journey. As in most of my life, my family's live's, we aren't traditional "follow the same path kind of people". God has emblazed on our hearts to constanly search and seek Him which always mean we cut a new trail. Oh, life would be great if we could, just once, follow someone else's lead, but our call is to follow Christ's lead and for us, for me, that means staying the course, continuing the trek. I knew when I was pursuing the idea of switching the kids that my heart was not at ease. You ever have those conversations with yourself trying to talk yourself into something but your heart just doesn't have peace? Thats the situation here. Knowing there was no room for Colson told me that we are to stay put. Am I happy about it, frankly, NO,but. . . .this is where God has called me, Den and our kids to serve. Can I try and be a light in a darkened world? Absolutely! will it be easy, probably not. But our mission is to go and touch others, and I know this is where He wants us to be and I want to be a part of His mission, His purpose, His plan and I definitely want to be where He is working.