a New Year and New Resolutions
It's always at this time of year I reflect on the past year and ponder on the future. I have never been good with resolutions. I always try one or two but they never seem to stick, well its all about the "will" and sometimes mine isn't so strong in the right things but too strong in the wrong things. Does that make sense? We've had alot on our plates the past few weeks, alot that sends your mind into deep-thinking mode; along with that we are facing changes as we begin this "new year". Branden and Bryan are moving to Colorado next week. Bryan will begin 7 months at the State Police Academy and Branden is moving to the western slope of the Rockies. He will be living with Den's Aunt Hilda and Uncle Gary. New starts for a New Year. Ben will be heading off to a new college this semester too, leaving the old behind and beginning new in a Christian setting. Brett will be in his last semester as a high school senior, and is looking forward to a summer of mission work. The biggest change will be for the rest of the family as we will, more than likely, be moving in the next 6 weeks. We haven't made a firm commitment yet, but either this position or another will bring new changes and new challenges. I am all up for change, yet as I reflect over the past 9 years here, its also bittersweet. Our kids have grown-up here, this the home most of them will remember. I am excited, apprehensive and a bit nervous. New friends, new area, new position, new church, new schools. Lots of NEW involved for everyone. The dynamics of our family are certainly changing, as its supposed too, but its never easy. It will be tough, to say the least, to say goodbye to our boys next week. Actually more like heartbreaking. It will be tough to put Daniel and Elizabeth back on a plane Sunday afternoon heading back to North Dakota, it will be tough seeing Ben off to a new setting and it will be tough to have the kids Christmas break end. As I said before I am not about resolutions but I do want to move myself closer to Christ, to find more of Him and less of me. To become more of a Godly wife, mom, sister, daughter, aunt and friend, to aim for His prize and not mine. See my life has been about "me" and not much about "Him", a sad admittance but an honest one. I want it deep within my heart, so much so, that it completely shows in all I do, say and am.

Thank you to all who read my blog. I appreciate your comments, look forward to them, and love them. I pray you will find all your answers in Him who gives us Life in this coming New Year.