normal~~~are you out there?

Its been quite a few days since I sat down to pen my thoughts. I struggle with where to begin and finding the right words to start off with. Do you ever long for a sense of "normalcy"? Its been nagging at me for quite a few months now. I try pushing it aside but it keeps resurfacing. I have to ask myself what is "normal" these days. Is it a steady job, a solid family, no issues in life, a good home, nice things? just what does "normal" mean to you? My heart-strings have been pulled lately about what I've been coveting. Honestly its not a fancy house, full of the latest furniture, or a sweet vehicle, a great sub, but its about where I'm finding my satisfaction or whom I'm finding my satisfaction in. It hasn't been where it should be and that's what God is working through my heart. I tend to get "caught-up" in stuff that sends my focus elsewhere. I'm trying to put it back into perspective, trying to give up a day a week, or every two, to fast and pray for the things we deeply need, not wants but true deep needs. Its been exciting, not because we've gotten what we've asked for because we haven't, but my houghts are focusing more on Him and less on me, and isn't that what it's supposed to be anyways? I'm finding that going 24 hours without eating is doable, and manageable and I am talking to God all day long, like I talk to my best friend, just as it should be! way cool, just way too cool!