A Sunday of Worship and Praise
I haven't had much of a chance to sit and pen my thoughts for a new blog post. I have alot running around in my head, much to process yet, and just wanted to take a minute to touch base, since it has been several days since I last posted. Our Sunday morning worship was spectacular. Of course the music is always top-notch because our worship Pastor, Kevin, is amazing; and our sermon topic for the month has been "do the unthinkable. . . . .get real. . . .get honest. . .trust and invest. . . .dream. . . .forgive". Our pastor chose to speak on the "get honest" topic Sunday. I knew from the moment he began to share that the sermon was meant for me. It totally shook me to the core, sent my emotions reeling, my heart quickened, my pulse raced and my world rocked. Isn't it hard to be totally honest? especially with God. As Christians we are supposed to have it "all together". Our trust for Him and His plan should come naturally, our fear should dissipate, etc. yet if we are truly deep-down honest with ourselves we really aren't as full of Him as we should be. We tend to hold onto things, in our lives, sometimes because we feel we are justified to do so, sometimes its our fear that won't let us "let go" and sometimes it out of just being selfish because "we want it". I was all of those things. I had to admit my anger to Him, because deep down in my heart there was alot harbored there, some aimed at Him, at others, at our circumstances, the list could go on. I knew that I won't ever be able to step ahead until I quite stepping deeper, in my own wants and ways. Its awfully hard to give up control, yet honestly, I've never had it, have I? I've maybe thought I did, but in reality God still was the controller, and when thinks went wrong, who did I blame, not me, of course, but Him. I, still have yet, to work through sections of my heart that I closed off to Him, but am pushing through it, because I want to be free, no matter what the circumstances, to find His peace and His joy. To walk the path that is before me with grace, dignity and honor to Him.

I would love for you to take a listen to "getting real". (I am not adept at posting a link, and sometime I am going to have someone show me how to do it) Take a few moments and listen to a friend share, our pastor share and another share about "getting honest with God". I know you won't be disappointed and maybe, like me, you might find yourself "letting go!"

Oh and if you do listen, leave me a comment or two about your thoughts and if God spoke to your heart too!
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